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cassieann_69 ([personal profile] cassieann_69) wrote2012-10-16 05:42 pm
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Feeling like crap.
Have not eaten anything solid since Saturday.
I have had been drinking special K protein shakes (1-2 a day)and water.
And I am really starting to "feel" it.
I have no energy and I have a splitting headache.
Why does it have to be so hard to take care of myself sometimes?
I know what I'm doing is not good for me.
But that number goes down every morning and its feeding something inside of me.
But at the same time It's killing me.
I've really got to pull myself together.
I have to learn to feed off of FOOD and not a NUMBER.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Hope you all are doing well:)

[identity profile] azuradrina.livejournal.com 2012-10-16 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, you know, food is really important.

[identity profile] meia-is-ana.livejournal.com 2012-10-17 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
I know what you mean Cass... I'm the same way lately, like I'ms tarting to feel run down, but even just .5 lbs down gets something in me excited and want more...
I really think eating disorders, though a mental issues, can be a type of addiction too.

I hope it gets better for you. Maybe try a safe food to start?

[identity profile] prorizzle.livejournal.com 2012-10-17 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
:( I really hope you eat something soon. Maybe start with some soup? Or some dry toast (45cal bread) with some hot tea? Even better 1 slice of toast with some soup! Please becarful. Stay safe <3

[identity profile] blackswan1983.livejournal.com 2012-10-17 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
Hi Cassie,
I'm sorry things are getting so bad. Please eat something so you can be around for your little boy. What if you threw that scale away and got into recovery? I know it's not your time until its your time to get better but I'm going to keep praying that you get help soon or more help than you may be getting, or something else changes and hopefully the day will come when things start to turn around for you. Take careful care of your heart. Make sure you are getting your electrolytes. Most ladies that die of anorexia eventually die of heart failure and sometimes electrolyte imbalance is what causes that. Stay hydrated and try not to be too active until you are able to start eating some more again. There is help out there, waiting for you to grab on to it. You helped me through my hard time until I got some help and I will always be here for you too.

Hugs

[identity profile] indnor.livejournal.com 2012-10-17 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sure that's a very hard place to be at. Hoping it gets better soon.

[identity profile] anonymouss18.livejournal.com 2012-10-18 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
Be Safe girl.

[identity profile] lilly8.livejournal.com 2012-10-18 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
oh sweetie im so sad your having such a hard time :( do you see a doctor/therapist? Please try to eat something small, the longer you dont eat anything the harder it will be to eat, try some soup to start, then maybe some fruit or a cracker?

hugs x