I was thinking about you today while I was looking at the moon. I mentioned you in my post (initials only, don't worry). http://blackswan1983.livejournal.com/1220013.html I talk about body image in there. Have you heard of the healthy at any size movement? Its about not worrying about the weight and just claiming your health. I know you are in the middle of an eating disorder and you certainly can't just snap out of it, I am not suggesting that you do, but I just wanted to bring this idea to your attention, to show you that it exists. There is a movement of girls that are working on just getting healthy regardless of what the scale says, they are no longer being enslaved by it. Do you ever feel rage at the society that we live in? I feel rage about all of the thin requirements and stuff. Maybe we need to express that rage into art in order to get it out of our psyche? I love you Cassie, I;m not trying to fix you, I know I can't, I just have these ideas in my head and want to share them with you. I am sorry today was hard. My personal feeling is I wish I could step into your body and start a rage about having to be upset because my weight didn't change. I want to take a glass scale and smash it against a purging toilet and say fuck your numbers. That would be good art! LOL we need to recreate that with a photographer in a controlled setting one day! I love you I hope something I say helps you and I hope I never hurt you. I am always afraid of saying the wrong thing to you. I am not sure why. I just want to be a friend that understands. I have a good heart. I hope you feel it coming through all this. Love you Cassie Ann, you are a woman in America in 2013 just like me.