I smoke weed. I want it to help me stop too bc I'm on my way to COPD. Husband and I not on good terms at the moment, I was too scared to talk to him about it, but if I did, I would be shot down. Rainbows did not come out. Yesterday was my sisters bday and I called to wish her a happy bday only to find that her, my eldest sister, my mom, and neice were all out eating in Hot Springs, AR and I didn't even get invited- not even mention it to me. Not 1 person called me on my bday. I feel wretched and worthless and unloved. I'm in tears this morning. If it were not for my little girl... :( I'll keep a dim light of hope in my heart that I can make it thru.