Pow! Pow! :) Sending you love for I understand! I went to see my doc today and I have a plan. 1) no more Ritalin, I was using it for the wrong reasons and it did NOT help me lose weight. 2) no more daily drinking. I LOVE your quote you gave: I'd drown my sorrows but the bastards learned to swim! I've been hiding behind a bottle too long and alcohol is a depressant- exactly what I don't need 3) Going to start Wellbutrin, so wish me luck that I can talk to husband about it and please pray he will support me (very touchy subject). I'm hoping it will help me stop smoking too. I'm ready for a clear head and heart.
Wellbutrin is what I take and have for the last 4 years or so. I initially lost weight. But have since gained it back (but not all of it / only about 1/2). And my mother (whom has COPD )is starting it to help her stop smoking...I did not know you smoked.I really hope that you husband will support you I know it's not his cup of tea. But you really deserve to feel better and sometimes we need help in getting there...ya know. Happy to hear your cutting back on the drinking too, that cannot be good for your mood or your weight. I still take my Ritalin religiously at the same times everyday, it does not in anyway keep me from eating or curb my appetite. However it does help me focus and gives me a bit of energy. Good luck w/hubby. And good luck on feeling better in general.
I smoke weed. I want it to help me stop too bc I'm on my way to COPD. Husband and I not on good terms at the moment, I was too scared to talk to him about it, but if I did, I would be shot down. Rainbows did not come out. Yesterday was my sisters bday and I called to wish her a happy bday only to find that her, my eldest sister, my mom, and neice were all out eating in Hot Springs, AR and I didn't even get invited- not even mention it to me. Not 1 person called me on my bday. I feel wretched and worthless and unloved. I'm in tears this morning. If it were not for my little girl... :( I'll keep a dim light of hope in my heart that I can make it thru.
Tuesday we got iced in and I didn't go to work. Me and hub are doing fine, spirits are back up. He said last night "sure is different than last Tuesday..referring to the drama...and I replied "no, I'm still really pissed about some things but I choose not to bring it right now." and then at least he knew I wasn't crazy lol. I left my bottle of Adipex on the gun cabinet, he could have done whatever he wanted with them but he never touched them, nor did I (only 2) but Tuesday evening...I flushed them down the toilet...and it didn't even fase me. I have a touch of regret here and there but not really and I'm proud of that. I think I've been on uppers too long in my life...anyway, just wanted to update.
I'm happy to hear you and hubby are doing better. And glad you feel proud of yourself about the meds. I was supposed to see my therapist today but after I got stuck in the snow and pulled out / she got stuck in the snow and did not get pulled out. So my appointment got resceduled for the 18th. I REALLY REALLY need to talk to someone about feeling such a lack of control. The weight I am carrying now is all due to age/pre-menopause or something because I have not changed anything at all. And it's DRIVING ME INSANE!!! We have a gym here right down the street that is only $10 a month w/no contract and I think I'm gonna give it a try. R says I'm just wasting my money because I won't go. But I figure so I try it for 2 months and if I don't use it ...I've lost $20..right.(well $30/there is a $10 sign up fee also). Anyway just something I'm considering. Thanks for the update. Take care.
You're entitled to have a bad day! Tomorrow is a new day. You can start fresh. Recovery is not a straight road. There are bound to be bumps and whatnot along the way. I know this is like the pot calling the kettle black, but please try not to beat yourself up! You don't deserve it.
Thanks so much...and it is 5:40am of the "next" day. I'm hoping that today will be better. R wants to go out to breakfast this morning and I LOVE breakfast so I have to think in terms of moderation. Fingers crossed. Hugs right back and you know what we all deserve it! Thanks so much for your support. Have a good weekend:)
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I went to see my doc today and I have a plan. 1) no more Ritalin, I was using it for the wrong reasons and it did NOT help me lose weight. 2) no more daily drinking. I LOVE your quote you gave: I'd drown my sorrows but the bastards learned to swim! I've been hiding behind a bottle too long and alcohol is a depressant- exactly what I don't need 3) Going to start Wellbutrin, so wish me luck that I can talk to husband about it and please pray he will support me (very touchy subject). I'm hoping it will help me stop smoking too. I'm ready for a clear head and heart.
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I initially lost weight. But have since gained it back (but not all of it / only about 1/2). And my mother (whom has COPD )is starting it to help her stop smoking...I did not know you smoked.I really hope that you husband will support you I know it's not his cup of tea. But you really deserve to feel better and sometimes we need help in getting there...ya know. Happy to hear your cutting back on the drinking too, that cannot be good for your mood or your weight. I still take my Ritalin religiously at the same times everyday, it does not in anyway keep me from eating or curb my appetite. However it does help me focus and gives me a bit of energy. Good luck w/hubby. And good luck on feeling better in general.
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Keep me updated.
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And glad you feel proud of yourself about the meds.
I was supposed to see my therapist today but after I got stuck in the snow and pulled out / she got stuck in the snow and did not get pulled out. So my appointment got resceduled for the 18th. I REALLY REALLY need to talk to someone about feeling such a lack of control. The weight I am carrying now is all due to age/pre-menopause or something because I have not changed anything at all. And it's DRIVING ME INSANE!!! We have a gym here right down the street that is only $10 a month w/no contract and I think I'm gonna give it a try. R says I'm just wasting my money because I won't go. But I figure so I try it for 2 months and if I don't use it ...I've lost $20..right.(well $30/there is a $10 sign up fee also). Anyway just something I'm considering. Thanks for the update. Take care.
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Hugs!!
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