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Today's weigh in 115.2 (things are looking better! lets hope I'm on a roll.)
Today's weigh in = 118.4 ( down a bit more then 1 lb from yesterday/ its a start:)
Down a lb from yesterday 119.8 / but this could mean anything...ya know.
Still at 120...120.8 to be exact.
I did eat yesterday, I am not necessarily planning on fasting.
Fasting has become very hard for me to do anymore it just makes me sick.
But I did go to the store and buy fruits & veggies.
I'm still surprised how many calories are in some of them.
I would rather not get all caught up in the calorie counting thing.
But it's hard not to when you are trying to lose weight.
It's also going to be harder to lose weight when R does not want me to.
He knows nothing of me trying to/ it would upset him.
And we go out to eat a lot so that is another obstacle where I need
to appear as if I'm eating 'normal'.
I won't purge or take lax so this has got to be all me.
I'm feeling like I may just weigh this much forever / or more.
And then there is this small part of me that says "would that really be so bad?"
I guess there is a small part of reality left in me.
Very small.
I did eat yesterday, I am not necessarily planning on fasting.
Fasting has become very hard for me to do anymore it just makes me sick.
But I did go to the store and buy fruits & veggies.
I'm still surprised how many calories are in some of them.
I would rather not get all caught up in the calorie counting thing.
But it's hard not to when you are trying to lose weight.
It's also going to be harder to lose weight when R does not want me to.
He knows nothing of me trying to/ it would upset him.
And we go out to eat a lot so that is another obstacle where I need
to appear as if I'm eating 'normal'.
I won't purge or take lax so this has got to be all me.
I'm feeling like I may just weigh this much forever / or more.
And then there is this small part of me that says "would that really be so bad?"
I guess there is a small part of reality left in me.
Very small.
