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[cassieann_69]

I just looked up in archives what I weighed on this day last year.
And i was 10 fucking lbs lighter!
I am such a fat cow.
i don't know how this happened???
WTF is happening to me?
I should never have looked....right?

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[nobodysangel-87.livejournal.com]

Its always hard to look back on a time when we were smaller. It never brings any good thoughts to mind. I completely understand what you are going through as I myself last year at this time was like fifteen to twenty pounds lighter. But just think its only ten pounds which is a lot easier to get off than the thirty I need to. You still look great hon and I'm sure you will have no problem losing that ten pounds that could be water weight. Good luck and hugs to you

[misspriss-dg.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I can see that you understand. And it does sound like it would be fairly easy to lose 10 lbs and it would seem that part of it is water weight...but it is pretty constant/ meaning I've been weighing within a pound everyday. This last week I made myself not weigh everyday as the number can just ruin my whole day. And I think I ended up eating more by not knowing the number. When I see the number and it's too high it is easier for my mind to say "restrict".(Not that I am condoning that.)Anyway it doesn't help trying to lose this weight when my boyfriend wants me to gain weight! (He is weird???)

[nobodysangel-87.livejournal.com]

yes i know that looking at the number on the scale deffinately helps to restrict, not eat, etc. But sometimes it is just depressing looking at that number on the scale everyday. At least it is for me. I understand what you mean by the it's hard to try losing this weight when your boyfriend wants you to gain. It's like that with me too. Like i want to lose at least 30 pounds and my husband is like you don't need to lose any weight haha yes my love i do and a lot. I guess it's what makes us happy that counts and for me that is being smaller. Good luck on the ten pounds hon or if you dont mind it than don't worry about it.hugs