Hey doll, I dont think I have an eating disorder, not so sure, just a passion to lose a few pounds to get to a desired weight and hold it; so dont take this as an expert opinion or anything like that on weight loss cuz im jsut starting this whole shed the pounds process. But one thing I have noticed is that sometimes I drop like 4 pounds in a day, go up a pound or two, and then hold steady for a day or two before losing more weight....could be water retention possibly? *shrugs* feel better doll you could be at 172 :( which to you prlly sounds like somone saying they are 200+ to me, but ya. :( *hugs*
edited as i forgot the 'p' in opinion, and it looked like I type onion ha.
I was thinking about you today while I was looking at the moon. I mentioned you in my post (initials only, don't worry). http://blackswan1983.livejournal.com/1220013.html I talk about body image in there. Have you heard of the healthy at any size movement? Its about not worrying about the weight and just claiming your health. I know you are in the middle of an eating disorder and you certainly can't just snap out of it, I am not suggesting that you do, but I just wanted to bring this idea to your attention, to show you that it exists. There is a movement of girls that are working on just getting healthy regardless of what the scale says, they are no longer being enslaved by it. Do you ever feel rage at the society that we live in? I feel rage about all of the thin requirements and stuff. Maybe we need to express that rage into art in order to get it out of our psyche? I love you Cassie, I;m not trying to fix you, I know I can't, I just have these ideas in my head and want to share them with you. I am sorry today was hard. My personal feeling is I wish I could step into your body and start a rage about having to be upset because my weight didn't change. I want to take a glass scale and smash it against a purging toilet and say fuck your numbers. That would be good art! LOL we need to recreate that with a photographer in a controlled setting one day! I love you I hope something I say helps you and I hope I never hurt you. I am always afraid of saying the wrong thing to you. I am not sure why. I just want to be a friend that understands. I have a good heart. I hope you feel it coming through all this. Love you Cassie Ann, you are a woman in America in 2013 just like me.
BTW, I didn't talk about you in the body image part of my post, I mentioned one of the quotes that you had posted before. I wouldn't take your own personal stuff into my journal, I'm not so tactless! I wanted to clarify that cause I went right from saying I wrote about you to talking about body image. But the two were not related at the time. The way it relates is we are both women with body image issues. But I mentioned you because of your love quotes. :)
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